You never know what life will throw at you. Every morning is a surprise. Lately life feels like a window. You know, the picture of someone looking out a window aimlessly. Yeah, that picture is me. Right now.
It is as if the world is passing you by, as you watch it pass the window. Like watching a movie of your life, but looking at it from the outside.
My kids are growing up so fast, I feel like I have missed half of their lives. My oldest starts to drive in September. Where has my little boy gone. I’m watching my kids turn into men and start having ideas of what they want to do in their future. They are starting to show their maturity, and it makes me want to cry. I good cry but a cry non the less.
My days are filled with the same routine. Get up, Coffee, drive to work. Work, drive home, then sleep. Get up and do it all over again. Repeat and repeat.
I watch my mundane life pass me by and I wander what am I really here for. What’s my purpose? Do you ever feel this way? Does your life feel like you are looking onto it though a window?
Covid 19 has made life more of a challenge that’s for sure. Now all of a sudden everything goes up in coast and my already struggling life is thrown off its course once more. Oh to work for my benefit and not the governments. Does that even exist? is it possible? Oh right, it does just not for me.
Today, my kids made this window life full of sunshine. They treated me to lunch out. Its the one time I feel like I’ve done something right. For one short moment I wasn’t in a window. Two weekends a month I’m not looking out a window. Then Sunday rolls around and my window watching starts. Back to this thing we call life.
Don’t take me wrong, I like my job and I have a great boss. I have a great family and a mom and stepdad that support me to the moon and back. I have a brother that would come running if I needed. A sister that would help me if I was sick. Oh and lets not forget our Heavenly Father Jesus Christ.
I have to remember the poem “Footprints” the author is Unanimous. This poem is the whole back ground to my website. “when you saw only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you”. Although in my life its like I am being carried all the time. Man I must be getting heavy.
One day, things with change for the better. One day, money will get better. One day, I will live my life. Not watch it through a window.
One Day
A Mom's Footprints 